Shots, shots, & more shots

Time seems to be flying by.  We are 1 week into my first round of shots, and can I just say "ouch!"  The day Jeff brought home my prescription I started freaking out and wondering how it in the hell I was going to be able to shoot myself with a needle in the stomach every day.  I questioned myself more than once and had to keep asking myself if this was going to be worth it.  Every time I asked myself that question, the answer was always unequivocally YES!  The shots have become easier to handle and easier to give, so that's a plus!  But my bathroom has started to look like a drug lab, and as the needles have started to pile up each day, Dylan finally noticed and asked: "Mom, what are all of these for?"  Up until now we have decided to leave the kids in the dark, so to speak.  We were not exactly sure how we wanted to tell them, and how much to tell them, but here it was, the question I knew was coming eventually.  How do you explain to your kids that mommy and daddy are trying to have a baby but we can't?  We haven't really even had the official sex talk yet, so I wasn't sure how much to tell them.  My explanation went something like this:  "Well Dylan, remember how I told you that Mom and Jeff really want to have our own baby ever since we lost our little girl a few years ago?  Well sometimes mommies and daddies have a hard time getting a baby on their own, and they have to go to a baby doctor.  The doctor gave mommy these shots, and hopefully this medicine is going to help mom to get pregnant."  I pretty much left it at that and it seemed to satisfy his curiosity.  But then he asked me why we want to have another baby.  I tried to explain to him that we have been sad inside since we lost our baby girl and that I feel like our family is not complete yet.  I told him that I still think we have another little baby waiting in Heaven to come and be a part of our family.  This seemed to suffice and he said he was ok with it, as long as he gets a little sister.......I hope we can deliver!

Girl or boy, twins or not, we are just praying for a healthy happy babe to join our crazy life.  

We have another doctor appointment coming up in a couple of days where they will do an ultrasound to make sure these shots have been doing their job, which is basically to overstimulate my body into producing as many eggs as possible, and hopefully none of the eggs have been released early, in which case we will have to push things out about a week or so.  We will also get the rest of my medication, more shots, and they will also be expecting our payment.  It's weird to think that in a way you are paying for a chance to have a baby, but that's pretty much what we are doing.  You can't put a price on family, and we are just elated to have this opportunity.  We are so thankful for everyone's support and prayers in our journey to Baby Dreams!

xoxo